one.

it's probably strange that i know this- that it's been exactly one month since i've met you. please don't think i'm some obsessive teenage girl counting the days :( i'm not sure how i even noticed, i just know that i met you the weekend before valentine's because you and a select few made that day extra special for me :) it's hard to believe how big a part of my life you've been this past month though.

i used to have a new accessory every weekend- now i only have one to keep grubby, disgusting hands off me because you're not there. he's the one who listens and reassures me when those insecurities get to me, reminding me that they're only a by-product of how wonderful you are.

it's not that i don't want you to be around those girls- i don't blame them, i can't leave you alone either :) i'm not jealous. in fact, i take it as a compliment knowing it's my voice you choose to come home to at the end of every day and listen to as you fall asleep.

i don't want to be the one thing in your life. i love the way you are- for who you are and everything you are. you are simply amazing. i won't even attempt to explain why because nothing i say would do you justice. i just want to be a part of something.

i don't want to be your one and only everything but i want to be your one and only anything- that one person you go to for no reason at all, not because you feel obligated to be by her side but because you simply want to be.

i used to be out on the town every weekend, sometimes even weekdays, just so i wouldn't be alone- now, even if i'm surrounded by a sea of people, i'll still feel the same if you're not there. i'm totally okay with that though, i'm not afraid of being by myself anymore :) i don't need your constant attention, i just need you.

i still believe that needing someone is just a state of mind. i'm completely aware that i don't actually need you. i choose to. i choose to not picture tomorrow without you, i choose to not picture next week without you- i haven't pictured much further than that though to be honest. i don't care if a year from now we despise each other. as far as i'm concerned, right now this is how we are and i'm not letting it change because of something that hasn't happened yet.

you are the single reason that i'm not merely content- for once in my life, i'm more than content. satisfied. happy even? i don't mean to sound ungrateful to my family.. it's hard to explain. it's not obsession, it's not infatuation, it's not irrational, it's not impulsive- it's not all those things people say it is. i know others disagree but they don't see what i see because if they did, they'd believe in fairy-tales too. all that being said, it's hard to believe that you've done all this to me without so much as a single kiss.
you really are rather extraordinary.


- jae.