hurt.

you don't seem to understand. and neither do i. something is clearly wrong with me. i know that. and i'm sorry. things can't be taken back, and sometimes it's a good thing. but this time is it really? i won't know until the day comes. i know i won't do what i said i wouldn't but you still don't seem to believe me. and that's your choice. even though it may have hurt. the truth hurts sometimes. and i know that. and just because it hurts it doesn't mean that everything should change.
everyone sees things in different perspective, but i want you to see it from mine. just a little. the last thing i wanted to do was to hurt you, and hearing about it makes me cry. being a crybaby isn't easy you know, my eyes hurt too. making me feel guilty isn't going to make things better either, it may just make it worse. because the more i feel like this. the more i won't want to do anything at all. i really do love you. loving someone like me isn't easy.

i'm lucky to have someone like you. you've stuck by me through thick and thin. and i love and respect you for that. knowing that you'll catch me when i fall is the best thing i could ever think of. even through all the shit, and through all the people i've known and met. you are the only one. and i couldn't be happier with the way things are with us. i know you're gonna be by my side for a long long time. longer than him anyway. coz he's just a cunt. a cunt in disguise because everyone else is yet to realise what he really is. fucking dick. LOL

- r