blog.

there's just too many thoughts in my mind that i can't even group them all into one thing in one blog entry. there's this, and that, and that, and this. what does it all mean to me? i really don't know.
a lot has happened in these past few weeks. for a moment there i thought i had lost something that i held so close to my heart that i thought i was going to breakdown, never to be seen again. and then all of a sudden it's all come back together. i know it won't ever be the same. but you know, you learn from experiences in your life. not from what other people tell you. you take what you have and you use it. take the advice people pass on to you but figure things out for yourself. and always remember who you are to begin with and why you are this way. because no matter how much people try or do influence you, it's still your life and not theirs. and decisions you make effect you more than anyone.
man, i don't even know how this blog became about all this in depth bullshit. i guess that's what really always runs through my mind all the time :/

i find it amusing when people over analyse things and i hear about it. makes me wonder why that thought even arose in their minds. i know i over analyse things, but that's just because i'm an idiot. and i get worried and paranoid over things too easily. and taking those drugs probably didn't help the situation. nothing i do probably helps any situation. luckily, i have great friends and family surrounding me. so that whenever that does happen, i realise it and know how to keep it together. or at least try to. i feel sorry for anyone who doesn't have the same thing. but i guess that's what makes me, me. and you, you.

- r