expectations.

sometimes the best things that happen to you in life are the ones you don't expect. actually, scratch that. a lot of the time the best things that happen to you are the ones you don't expect. except maybe if you get prego with someones random child. although, looking on the bright side that actually could be a good thing. that baby may end up being the light of your life, and the reason for your existence.
but then there's times where what you never expected would happen, happens. and your life starts to crumble around you and you wonder how you got there. and how you're going to get out. i guess that's why i always know to keep myself protected from such unexpected things, so that when it starts to crumble i can just grab my shovel and dig my way back out before i die in the dirt. but right now i don't know where the fuck i put my shovel, so i'm hoping that not everything is going to go crumbling down. perhaps i should invest in a superhero too? :/

- r