changed.

i can't help but think sometimes i give a little too much- will taking this chance really be worth it, or will it just be a catastrophic mistake? completely immersing myself in work and study, making my teenage social life practically non-existent.. this blind faith and seemingly unfaltering feelings.. i always seem to give a little more to one over another. sometimes, i doubt- doubt whether this sudden burst of determination will see me through to the end, and doubt you know how much you've changed me..

regardless- i'll go for as long as this determination will drive me, and stand by you until you shatter me into a million unrecognisable pieces.. because this what you've done to me. i seem to have lost the ability to critically analyse a situation and make a pessimistic evaluation that i'll honestly believe still holds true, amongst other things.. but i've gained an experience worth much more :) fear is for the weak, doubt is for cowards and insecurities just need a little bit of extra attention, time and love.

that's right dearest, you read it, and you know i'm aiming it at you ;) don't stress though, i'll be making sure you get plenty of it! unfortunately for you, i have an artillery full.

- jae.