sober.

So, this is the first entire weekend I've spent at home in a looooooooooooooong time and I've realised why I've felt the need to be out and intoxicated constantly. Actually, it came up a couple of days ago but I just shrugged it off- until it came up in conversations with friends who insisted that I give it more consideration, rather than just a mere "meh". It's something I'd rather not talk or think about much because the more I do, the more I begin to question myself- and I don't like being questioned, even by myself D:<

Sometimes, when I sit down to look in the mirror, I notice there's a bottle of jager 'conveniently' obscuring my line of vision. Sigh. I was watching Gossip Girl before- I love the narration (: she's so clever- anywho, she said something that I really, really like:
" If we hold on to the past too tight, the future may never come. "
I'm sure a handful of you just figured out what's been bothering me now.

- jae.