let it go.

let it go. it's not that big of a deal. and if you think it is, that's too bad for you. coz i don't think like that. and i thought you did too. whatever happens from now on, will help me see how things really are. coz lately things have been a little blurry. but as soon as things go back to how they were, we can see how it goes.

yay my parents are back. i wonder how long it's gonna be until they start to drive me crazy again. but for now, i'm really liking the home made food and the chats with my mummy. she's a funny woman. :)

- r

sleeeeep.

so i've finally caught up on my sleep since last friday. at least i think i have. sorry to my darling who just lied there next to me last night watching the office alone. har har har. but now i'm the one behind :( oh well, day off today! at least until five anyways ==" sigh, i keep eating! why oh why! i need to start eating healthy food again, then maybe i'll stop getting sick all the time. yes, i am getting sick again. marvelous! D:

and happy birthday to jer jer! sorry i didn't bring your present last night, but at least you got to watch the running man after dinner! :D lol

- r

decisions.

sometimes i worry about you. so much of what you do revolves around experimentation. i don't like it. i'm never going to know what the outcome is going to be. i don't know what you're going to end up doing. i don't know what's going to happen to you. so i've decided that i have to be there with you through this all, because at least i can attempt to protect you. i forbid you to leave me, because you're a stupid idiot.

funny how people you think you've lost come back to you. it's weird because you don't know what to do at first. it will never be the same. it's already fallen apart, but i guess there's nothing wrong with trying to fix it. we'll just see how long it lasts this time around.

i remember why i don't like going out anymore. after this weekend i'm going to continue what i started - sleeping in and watching the office :)

- r