depressing shit.

i walk down the road and what do i see?
i see a small primary school with children playing games on the oval. pushing their friends around, laughing, crying, screaming.
their lives seem so full of innocence. all they want to do is play with toys, make new friends, share cute silly stories. they understand each other.
children have this interesting thing, i've noticed. no matter how different they are, they tend to understand each other. it doesn't matter where they're from. most of the time, the person sitting next to them becomes their best friend.
just because they sit next to them. and when it's time to move to a different class, it starts all over again.
how do they adapt so easily? that's the thing. they don't. every single year, they move class, change teacher, change 'best friend' even. it's not easy to make a solid relationship with people when all this change happens. that's why, when change does happen you learn to hold on to things. at least make sure you have kept a memory. coz you never know when that's all you will have of someone.

i'm sure plenty of people wonder why my blogs always seem so depressing. well, they are i guess, in a way. but only because i type out all my depressing thoughts, with hope that they will go away and i can continue to live my life without ever thinking of such things. but sometimes, when i'm alone i sit there and just think. think about all the friends i've had, all the friends i DO have and how i can keep things the way they are. because right now everything seems almost perfect, right where i want it to be. even after all that change, moving around, constant best friend changing. i feel like i'm in a great position right now. right where i want to be. even though there are some people missing in the puzzle i guess i'll just have to deal with a few holes here and there but as long as i stay like this, for a little longer i'm happy and awfully blessed to have what i have.

- r