upset.

it's annoying how i cry so easily. it makes me feel like such a sook. but i can't help it if what you do upsets me. the tears just start streaming down my face unintentionally. i don't even know myself why it happens so easily. i guess i just can't accept what happens, and frankly i don't think i ever will. that upsets me. i can't accept that people change, and having a feeling that things will never be the same. that upsets me. i can't accept the things you do, and knowing i will never be able to change you. that upsets me. i can't accept hearing so many things at once about other people, and trying to help but failing terribly. that upsets me. and whenever i try to stay away from all the dramas and the bullshit. it just won' leave me alone. i guess that's what upsets me the most. i feel like i'm in some weird stage in life where i just don't know where i stand with everyone.
so i'm just gonna go stand over there, by myself until someone joins me and doesn't upset me.

- r