disoriented.

in any other situation i wouldn't have given up so easily, i would've eventually gotten my way but you, you're different. for once in my life, i'm actually putting someone else before myself. even though i'm telling everyone i'm doing this for me, i have to admit, i'm not really. i've already made my point clear but it seems the harder i try to push my point, the more grief it seems to cause you. so, i'm gonna walk away. my visions getting blurry as i leave so i can't really see where i'm going and i can't seem to remember the way back to where i was before. all i know is, wherever i end up, you won't be there.

there are a few things i have to smile about though. i have one of my best friends back finally, after two years, and a new car. maybe money can't buy happiness but atleast i'll be crying in a beamer ;p you'd think i'd be stoked but really, it's just something else for me to worry about.

- jae.