package.

so a package came today, my heart skipped a beat when i saw the address on the back "Saint Julien, Geneva" - grandmama! :D
it's funny how you tend to forget about distant relatives when you keep yourself so busy everyday, i can barely remember where i leave my keys every time i set them down. oh, how i miss her dearly ): her teapot physique, her adorable little waddle, how she can't see above my shoulders. i miss you, grandmama ): i was sorely disappointed, however, when i opened this package. grandma used to send me swiss and french chocolates all the time and after she stopped i went through this phase where i didn't eat sweets at all. yes, i know, surprising? unbelievable? anyway, that all stopped about about 6-7 years ago though but the child in me couldn't help but be hopeful, eagerly unwrapping the package like my nephews on christmas morning. to my dismay, my aunty had sent over vietnamese cd's for the parentals. was it really necessary to send such things half way across the world T_T eugh, i hate the feeling of disappointment.

this reminded me of something a friend once told me
"expect nothing from anyone, and you won't be disappointed"
if you shut up for five minutes and just watch,
you'll understand why i said no -
then again, i don't expect you to
and that's why i'll never say yes.


- jae.