compliments.

so recently i found myself in a a situation, simply put; i was played, big time. when confronted about it, to be honest i didn't know what to say or do, i've never been in that situation before. my confusion turned into a blinding, murderous anger- ask anyone that was around at the time (: it's true. then i was approached by the (at the time) girlfriend. i admired her ability to keep her cool and actually talk to me to find things out- if i were her, i would've smashed my skull in before i got the chance to open my mouth :/ then again, it's not like i knew about them. i guess it was complete luck things turned out the way they did, that she didn't turn out to be a manipulative, lying, cheating whore like him otherwise things would've been different- who knows how many assault charges i'd have at this moment.

in all honesty, i was still confused as hell when she approached me, just not so angry but i figured that if both of us still were hung up about the whole situation, neither of us would get anywhere. so instead, i faked a strong front, or one stronger than the one i was fronting at the time. i became a person that i knew we both needed but something she said completely threw me off- really, how often do you hear the (then-)girlfriend telling the 'other woman' "you're so amazing, no wonder everyone loves you (: i can see why [he] cheated"- HOW THE HELL DO YOU SAY THAT SMILING?! even after the conversation i still feel flustered repeating it- she actually made me blush tt"

the point of this story? well;
- i find being strong is far easier when you have someone to be strong for whether friends, family or a special someone.
- being so honest can be bad sometimes, people will take advantage of you. being played is no excuse to turn into a fuckhead who's inconsiderate about other people's feelings. those low enough to cheat will cheat no matter what, some just wait for a reason to come along. those who bounce back after such an ordeal and remain the same, i believe, deserve a round of applause (: COS I AM AWESOME LIKE THAT. nothing and no one will change me. the people that stand by me are there for a reason, i'm not going to change that and neither should you.

..and uhm, yeah :D end of story.


- jae.