last.

..but behind the scenes
he means the world to me

- jae.

over.

the hardest part about moving on isn't learning to sleep by yourself at night, it's learning to sleep next to someone else.

- jae.

reminisce

reading back over the crap i wrote and thinking "that's disgusting", it's actually kinda sickening.

- jae.

instance.

that moment when you realise, despite the 80 odd years of your existence, you will die alone and the world couldn't care less. more reason to do what you love, say what you mean and not give a damn because no one else will anyway.

- jae.

grateful

you know those songs that just seem to say everything better than you can..

" this ones for you and me, living out our dreams.. "
we both know exactly what we want
and we're both equally intent on getting it
unfortunately, those dreams aren't with each other

" ..we are right where we should be.. "
regardless of how everything has happened
if we think about it reallyy hard
this couldn't have turned out any better

" ..with my arms out wide.. "
you still have that amazing ability to make me smile
and there's no doubt you're always going to be around
sometimes, even if i may not want you to be

" ..i open my eyes and now all i wanna see- "
occasionally, the 'happy' ending isn't the usual sort of 'happy'
regardless, i'm still very glad i met you
because you make my world that touch more colourful

- jae.

I Will Be Here

I don't know, what went wrong
If I did, would it matter cause
It just wasn't enough
You know when the moment comes
To be strong, show resistance
And that is what we're lead to believe

When the big world falls apart
And you think that the feeling will linger
You need somewhere to start, I will be here

Guess that things didn't work out
It will soon disappear and will be miles away
Away from here
You don't mind if life's not that pretty
It will soon disappear and will be miles away
Away from here

When the big world falls apart
And you think that the feeling will linger
You need somewhere to start, I will be here

And when it all seems to fall apart
You can't breathe, you don't know what you're thinking
You need somewhere to start, I will be here

I will be here..

Promise This

In my beginning there was nothing
So empty in the space between
Then you came in, turned the lights on
And created what has come to be
-
Though I'm walking through the shadows
You are with me and you comfort me
Lay me down now, time for sleeping
But before that, would you miss me?
-
By a thread we're hanging on
And I hope you don't let go
If you ever leave me
Know I wanna go with you
-
Before I pluck your wings, cover me please
Spread your wings, cover me
Promise this, if I die before I wake
Promise this, take the time to say your grace
On your knees you'll pray for me
Promise this, be the last to kiss my lips

- Cheryl Cole.